I Am A Renegade - Dean/Castiel fanmix

[janie_tangerine]

Well, I guess I'm the queen of multi-tasking since I put this thing together while reading a book and making a concordance. I just hope it doesn't show, lol. And er, yeah, D/C fanmixes are becoming my crack.

Title: I Am A Renegade
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Type: Fanmix
For: neierathima at the Dean/Castiel co-op swap exchange.
Prompt: A fanmix of Dean/Castiel charting their relationship over each episode. That is, have a song (maybe two) for each episode sort of summing up the tone for that ep.
Notes: well, I had two songs for each episode except one which has three because I seemingly like it too much and I make favoritism (which is also the reason there are two Bruce Springsteen songs even if I tried not to repeat people, but it happened that they fit). Also, er, the first song for episode #2 is deliberately there for crack value. Hope you like it!

ETA: the individual song links are expired (I'll update them asap) but the comprehensive zip is available.







1. Nobody's Fault But Mine - Jimmy Page and Robert Plant

Oh Lord, nobody's fault but mine
Tryin' to raise my soul to light
Ah have a bible in my home
Have a bible in my home
Tryin' to raise my soul to light

2. Lake Of Fire - Nirvana

Where do bad folks go when they die
They don't go to heaven where the angels fly
Go to a lake of fire and fry
Don't see them again 'till the Fourth of July

People cry and people moan
Look for a dry place to call their home
Try to find some place to rest their bones
While the angels and the devils try to make 'em their own

3.Respect - Otis Redding

But all I want you to do
Just give it, give it
Respect when I come home

Respect is what I want
Respect is what I need
Respect is what I want
Respect is what I need

4.Ask The Angels - Patti Smith

Ask the angels who they're calling,
Go ask the angels if they're calling to thee
Ask the angels while they're falling
Who that person could possibly be (...)

Across the country through the fields
You know I see it written 'cross the sky
People rising from the highway
And war war is the battle cry
And it's wild wild wild wild.

Armageddon, it's gotten
No savior jailer can take it from me
World ending, it's just beginning

5.Unhappy Girl - The Doors

Unhappy girl
Left all alone
Playing solitaire
Playing warden to your soul
You are locked in a prison of your own device

And you can't believe
What it does to me
To see you crying

6.Off He Goes - Pearl Jam

Said he'll see me on the flipside
on this trip he's taken for a ride
he's been taking too much on
there he goes with his perfectly unkept clothes
there he goes...
he's yet to come back (...)

We go way back
I wonder about his insides
its like his thoughts are too big for his size
he's been taken... where, I don't know?
off he goes with his perfectly unkept hope
and there he goes...

7.No Quarter - Led Zeppelin

Walking side by side with death
The devil mocks their every step
The snow drives back the foot that's slow
The dogs of doom are howling more
They carry news that must get through
To build a dream for me and you
They choose the path that no one goes
They hold no quarter

8.Come Pick Me Up - Ryan Adams

You know you could
I wish you would
Come pick me up
Take me out
Fuck me up
Screw all my friends behind my back
With a smile on your face
And then do it again
I wish you would

I wish you'd make up my bed
So I could make up my mind
Try it for sleeping instead
Maybe you'll rest sometime
I wish I could

9.You've Got To Hide Your Love Away - Eddie Vedder

How can I even try?
I can never win
Hearing them, seeing them
In the state I'm in
How could she say to me
"Love will find a way?"
Gather round all you clowns
Let me hear you say

Hey you've got to hide your love away

10.Sympathy - Goo Goo Dolls

And I wished for things that I don't need
(All I wanted)
And what I chased won't set me free
(It's all I wanted)
And I get scared but I'm not crawlin' on my knees

Every thing's all wrong, yeah
Every thing's all wrong, yeah
Where the hell did I think I was?

And stranger than your sympathy
Take these things, so I don't feel
I'm killing myself from the inside out
And now my head's been filled with doubt

11.Hang Down Your Head - Tom Waits

Tear the promise from my heart, tear my heart today
You have found another, oh baby I must go away
So hang down your head for sorrow, hang down your head for me

12.I Wish I Were Blind - Bruce Springsteen

We struggle here but all our love's in vain
And these eyes that once filled me with your beauty
Now fill me with pain
And the light that once entered here
Is banished from me
And this darkness is all baby that my heart sees

And though the world is filled
With the grace and beauty of God's hand
Oh I wish I were blind
When I see you with your man

13.Belief - John Mayer

Belief is a beautiful armor
but makes for the heaviest sword
like punching underwater
you never can hit who you're trying for
some lead the exhibition
and some have to know they tried
it's the chemical weapon
for the war that's raging on inside
oh, everyone believes
from emptiness to everything
oh, everyone believes
and no one's going quietly

we're never gonna win the world
we're never gonna stop the war
we're never gonna beat this
if belief is what we're fighting for

14.Interstate Love Song - Stone Temple Pilots

Waiting on a Sunday afternoon
for what I read between the lines,
your lies.
feelin' like a hand in rusted shame
so do you laugh or does it cry?
reply?

leavin' on a southern train
only yesterday you lied,
promises of what I seemed to be
only watched the time go by,
all of these things you said to me

15.Slither - Velvet Revolver

When you look you see right through me
Cut the rope, I fell to my knees
born and broken every single time

Always keep me under finger
That's the spot where you run to me
might see some type of pleasure in my mind (...)

Yeah, here comes the water
It comes to wash away the sins of you and I
This time you'll see
Like holy water
It only burns you faster than you'll ever dry
This time with me

16.Zero - Smashing Pumpkins

My reflection, dirty mirror
There's no connection to myself
I'm your lover, I'm your zero
I'm in the face of your dreams of glass
So save your prayers
For when we're really gonna need'em
Throw out your cares and fly
Wanna go for a ride? (...)

Emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
And cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me

17.Help! - Oasis

Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me?

And now my life has changed in oh so many ways,
My independence seems to vanish in the haze.
But every now and then I feel so insecure,
I know that I just need you like I've never done before

18.I Am - Bon Jovi

It seems you always wait for life to happen
And your last buck can't buy a lucky break
If all we've got is us then lifes worth living
And if you're in, you know I'm in
I'm ready and I'm willing

I Am, when you think that no-one needs you
Sees you or believes you
No ones there to understand, I Am
I'll be there to be that someone
When you think that no one, is there to hold your hand
I Am

19.Bridge Over Troubled Water - Simon & Garfunkel

I'm on your side
When times get rough
And friends just can't be found
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down

20.You're Gonna Make Me Lonesome When You Go- Bob Dylan

You're gonna make me wonder what I'm doin',
Stayin' far behind without you.
You're gonna make me wonder what I'm sayin',
You're gonna make me give myself a good talkin' to

I'll look for you in old Honolulu,
San Francisco, Ashtabula,
You're gonna have to leave me now, I know.
But I'll see you in the sky above,
In the tall grass, in the ones I love,
You're gonna make me lonesome when you go.

21.Happiness - Alison Krauss & Union Station

Love like a lesson learned when we pass the point of no return
You can't always trust happiness
There in love's steady glow hides the power to hurt us so
You can't always trust happiness

22.Please - U2

So you never knew love... until you crossed the line of grace
And you never felt wanted... 'til you'd someone slap your face
So you never felt alive... until you'd almost wasted away

So you never knew... how low you'd stoop to make that call
And you never knew... what was on the ground until they made you crawl
So you never knew... that the heaven you keep, you stole

Your catholic blues, your convent shoes
Your stick on tattoos, now they're making the news
Your holy war, your northern star
Your sermon on the mount from the boot of your car

23.Carvel - John Frusciante

When I try I force it out
Never looking in only out
Now is the time for millions to lose
Never the same since I lost you
Running me out of town
Wishing the best around
Would only get off my back
Heaven receives you and throws you back

Sending a dummy to my God

24.For You - Bruce Springsteen

I came for you, for you, I came for you, but you did not need my urgency
I came for you, for you, I came for you, but your life was one long emergency
and your cloud line urges me, and my electric surges free (...)

I swear I was never that way even when I really cracked (...)

And your strength is devastating in the face of all these odds
Remember how I kept you waiting when it was my turn to be the god?

25.Renegade - Warren Zevon

Some prayers never reach the sky
Some wars never end
Some dreams refuse to die
Next time I would rather break than bend

I am a renegade
I've been a rebel all my days
I am a renegade
I've been a rebel all my days

zip with all the songs + art