Five Acts meme

[janie_tangerine]

Okay, this is my list for toestastegood's AWESOME five acts meme.

Rules are:

- Post a list of your five favorite sexual acts/kinks. At the bottom, add what fandoms/pairings you're interested in.
- Read other people's lists.
- Post comment-fic based off of other people's lists.

My list (half kinks and half tropes I guess)

[PS: random order, not preference.]

1. crossdressing: okay, say what you want, but men dressed as women and viceversa totally makes me a satisfied reader. I'm okay with any degree of it, whether it's just underwear or full-on crossdressing.

2. amnesia: I have such a thing for amnesia fic. Either with just one character forgetting stuff or the both of them, it's awesome either way.

3. consensual d/s: okay, this is nothing I write usually because for some reason I'm crap at it, but give me some fully/entirely consensual d/s and I'll love you forever. I don't care if it's some 24/7 thing or not, as long as there's no non-con going on I'm a happy camper.

4. hurt/comfort: call me a sap. I can't resist it. Especially when combined with any of the other items in the list, but give me some nice h/c (as unconventional as you want) and I won't resist it. It doesn't really have to be sexual either.

5. music: which might not be a proper kink, but it's totally my thing. I like people playing instruments (and maybe character A gets turned on if character B plays), or people having sex with music in the background, hell, band AUs are totally a-okay. Hell, singing even!

Fandoms and pairings

Lost: Jack/Boone, Desmond/Sayid, Jack/Sawyer, Boone/Charlie, Jacob/Richard, any combination of Jack/Sawyer/Sayid/Boone really, Desmond/Penny, Jack/Juliet, Daniel/Desmond and Frank/anyone really are my favorites, but I'm of open views. As long as the pairing doesn't involve Locke or Ben and isn't Kate/Sawyer, Jack/Kate and Sawyer/Juliet? I'm all in.
Supernatural: Dean/Castiel, Dean/Sam/Castiel, Dean/Sam, Sam/Castiel (yeah, I totally have imagination), Ash/Andy (SO WHAT? Random but awesome XD), actually Ash/everyone, screw it, the world needs more Ash XD, Dean/Jimmy, Castiel/Jimmy (hell, Dean/Cas/Jimmy is totally awesome too). Oh, and Chuck/Becky? XD [hint: I prefer it if Dean bottoms if you go for a Dean pairing, but if he wants to top it's fine either way. ;)]
The Dark Tower series: Roland/Eddie, Cuthbert/Alain, Roland/Eddie/Susannah.
Good Omens: Crowley/Aziraphale, Newt/Anathema if you're feeling bold.
Chuck: Chuck/Bryce, Ellie/Awesome.
Deadwood: Jane/Joanie (this one is probably hopeless but hey, I'm trying XD), Sol/Trixie.
The Three Musketeers (same as the previous, but hey. Let's try it. XD): Athos/d'Artagnan, Porthos/Aramis, Rochefort/Richelieu (come on, OTP!). Also friendship and not-slash is awesome.
The Vampire porn Diaries: Damon/Alaric, Damon/any male character that isn't Jeremy or Tyler.
Firefly: Zoe/Wash, Mal/Simon.
Six Feet Under: David/Keith, Nate/Brenda.
Friday Night Lighs: Tim/Jason, possibly set before S2.
Watchmen: Daniel/Rorschach.

Okay, that covers it.

What I've written:

- Lucifer/Esau which is kinda Lucifer/War + implied Jacob/Esau (Lost/SPN crossover), reunion + hand holding, NC17 for toestastegood [spoilers for the first part of SPN S5 and up until 6x09 in Lost just to be sure]
- Jack/Boone + Sawyer (Lost), rimming + voyeurism, NC17 for haldoor
- Damon/Alaric (Vampire Diaries), knife-play, R for gottalovev
- Bryce/Chuck (Chuck), post-apocalypse + rainy weather + motels, R for gigglemonster
- Desmond/Sayid (Lost), breathplay + kissing + touching + h/c-ish stuff, NC17 for wandersfound [spoilers up to 6x12]
- Miles/Daniel (Lost), forced to share a bed + kissing + sort-of-cuddling, PG13 for ozmissage
- Damon/Alaric (Vampire Diaries), blood-play, NC17 for fullonswayzed
- past!Dean/future!Castiel (SPN), rimming + sort of biting, NC17 for mf_luder_xf
- Dean/Castiel (SPN), protectiveness + h/c, sorta, PG-ish for catoasapun
- Dean/Castiel (SPN), orgasm denial + established relationship, NC17 for invisiblelove
- Desmond/Sayid (Lost), fugitives + kissing, either light r or hard pg13 for aboutbunnies
- Ellie/Awesome (Chuck), food, pg for rayruz
- Sam/Castiel (SPN), AU + sort of staring + movies (grad!student!Sam + librarian!Cas), PG13 for hopelessfangirl
- Jack/Sawyer (Lost), stars + tattoos + light foreplay but just barely, light R or hard PG13 for gemjam
- Dean/Castiel (SPN), restraints + blowjobs + first times, NC17 for zelda_zee
- Dean/Castiel (SPN), coats + voices + h/c-ish + begging, NC17 for bold_seer
- Sam/Castiel/Dean (SPN), fingers + sort of double penetration + kissing for entangled_now
- Jack/Juliet (Lost), angst + quick + stockholm syndrome for lenina20
- Dean/Castiel (SPN), foot fetish, hard Pg13 for emerald_embers
- Jack/Sayid (Lost), sex against a wall + worry, hard R or light NC17 for mollivanders
- Faramir/Eòwyn (Lotr), happy endings + happiness + lightlightlight possessiveness, PG for yersi_fanel
- Dean/Castiel (SPN), crossdressing + sort of biting, NC17 for cs_whitewolf
- Dean/Castiel (SPN), orgasm denial + coming untouched, NC17 for liadan14

Comments

Dean/Cas, amnesia [R]

[invisiblelove.livejournal.com]

HOLY CRAP THIS GOT REALLY LONG AND REALLY SAD. I HOPE YOU STILL LIKE IT *IS NERVOUS*


The apocalypse was averted: good had prevailed, it turned out God really did give a damn, and the angels and demons were all back where they belonged. The powers that be in Heaven had decided it would be for the best if no humans had any recollection of the angels who had walked among them.

Of course, that meant that one human was left with a strange scar on his shoulder and no memories of the one who had put it there.

It turns out Castiel had been playing for the right team all along. And when all was said and done, he was welcomed home with open arms. His grace was restored, and he was once again in good standing with the heavenly host.

Which is why it made absolutely no sense that he felt a vast, empty ache pulsing throughout his entire being.

One day after months of antagonizing, Castiel finally approached Gabriel. “I wish to return to earth for one night in the visage of my former vessel.”

“Little Brother, you and I both know that’s a terrible idea.”

“Gabriel, please.”

The archangel stared at his younger brother, finally free to exist in his true form – shining and bright and so painfully beautiful that one mere glimpse would burn the eyes from that Winchester boy’s skull. But even amidst all his radiance, Gabriel knew Castiel was not at peace.

“He won’t even recognize you,” he said, making one last effort to save his brother additional pain.

“Don’t you think I know that? I don’t care. Please. Please, Gabriel. Please do this for me. I will not ask it of you again.”

Gabriel sighed. “If you say so. The carriage turns back into a pumpkin at midnight, though.”
And with that, he pressed a hand to Castiel’s forehead.

**

Re: Dean/Cas, amnesia [R] [Part 2]

[invisiblelove.livejournal.com]

One moment he was in heaven and the next he was back in a human body again. He appeared to be in some dive bar, the kind that he had frequented countless times while on the road with Sam and Dean. He looked down at himself; Gabriel had put him in something less conspicuous than Jimmy’s trench coat. He was instead wearing blue jeans and a soft cotton shirt with the sleeves cuffed up around his forearms.

Castiel could feel Dean’s presence in this place and it only took him one sweep of his eyes across the room to land on his former charge. He was sitting at the bar with a bottle of beer, mind clearly miles away but unburdened in a way Castiel had never really seen him while he had been on earth. He looked good. He felt something in his human chest constrict and his vision begin to cloud, but he took a few deep breaths and managed to steady himself. If he was going to do this, he would have to appear entirely natural.

Taking a look at his borrowed face in one of the mirrors on the wall, Castiel steeled himself for what he was about to do before turning and making his way to the bar. He thought he had prepared himself for the lack of recognition on Dean’s face when he saw him, but nothing could have made him ready for the wary glance Dean gave him when he sidled up next to him at the bar. He very nearly scrapped the whole idea. Gabriel was right; this was going to do nothing to help ease the gaping emptiness that had followed him back to heaven. But now that he was next to Dean again, he knew he would only be kidding himself if he thought he had the strength to turn away.

“Hey,” he said, the sound of Jimmy’s voice strange to him after not hearing it for so long.

“Ugh, hi.”

Castiel wracked his brain for the pick up lines he had heard Dean use. He had never had to learn to be flirtatious while on earth. His relationship with Dean had grown from something so infinitely deeper than any clever phrases and wit ever could.

Realizing that directness was his only hope for getting what he needed, he positioned himself into Dean’s personal space and made sure no one was looking before dropping his hand between Dean’s splayed legs and squeezing him through the worn denim of his jeans. He pitched his voice low and whispered, “Could you find somewhere private so I can get this in my mouth?”

Dean nearly choked on his beer. He managed to swallow and then locked eyes with Castiel. “Hell yeah,” he breathed. Eyes hooded and pupils blown, it was the same look he used to elicit on Dean’s face – only there was none of the underlying affection, and maybe even love, that was there before. He tried to push the thought out of his head; if he was going to go through with this, he was going to try and enjoy it as much as possible.

Dean stood up and Castiel followed him as he made his way to the bar’s bathroom. They entered and the pale, sickly light brought on a fresh wave of pain over the fact that Dean would remember nothing more than maybe an orgasm from tonight.

Re: Dean/Cas, amnesia [R] [Part 3]

[invisiblelove.livejournal.com]

Dean took the initiative and pressed Castiel up against the door and locked it behind them. Castiel had to place his hands on Dean’s chest to steady himself when the other man slid his hand around to Castiel’s back and forced their hips together. They breathed into each other’s mouths for several heartbeats until finally Castiel flipped their positions and pinned Dean to the door. He nudged his thigh between Dean’s legs and could feel him already half hard through his jeans. Rubbing his leg against the hard line of Dean’s cock, he pressed his mouth to the side of Dean’s neck and pushed his tongue against the exact place that he knew always made him shudder and shake.

He smiled when he felt goosebumps form beneath his tongue and began sucking a deep purple bruise into his flesh. Castiel breathed him in, the smell of his leather jacket that was probably waiting in the Impala, the faint traces of the beer he had been drinking, and the smell of the soap from the motel mixed in with his own unique scent. He grazed his teeth across Dean’s ear before pushing his shirt up his chest, the firm muscles of his abdomen jumping as he kneeled down to press his mouth to the faint trail of hair that disappeared below his waistband.

Castiel let go of Dean’s shirt, leaving it partially bunched above his navel. He went to work on Dean’s belt, unfastened the button of his jeans, and glanced upward to meet Dean’s eyes before slowly sliding the zipper down. He pushed the fabric down his thighs and proceeded to run his tongue above the edge of the elastic of his boxer briefs before sliding them down to join his jeans around his calves.

He wasted no time in getting Dean into his mouth. He set both hands into the grooves of Dean’s hipbones and pulled him more tightly against his mouth. He inched down to the tip and then quickly swallowed him back to the base.

Dean was practically writhing against the door, his fist in his mouth to stifle his moaning. Castiel used his tongue to flick along the bundle of nerves at the underside of the crown and groaned when a faint hint of Dean’s taste flooded his mouth.

Castiel used all that he knew about Dean to work him to the very edge and then bring him back down again over and over and over until Dean was a sweating, stammering wreck. Just the sounds of Dean’s pleasure had Castiel painfully hard against the jeans he was wearing.

Dean shoved his hand into the other man’s hair, and Castiel could tell by the way that he slowly clenched and unclenched his fist that he was consciously forcing himself not to just let go and thrust into his mouth. But before Dean could withdraw his hand, Castiel reached up and threaded his fingers with Dean’s, adding to the pressure on his scalp. Dean groaned as his head fell back against the door.

Re: Dean/Cas, amnesia [R] [Part 4]

[invisiblelove.livejournal.com]

With one last squeeze to Dean’s fingers in his hair as a wordless instruction to keep them there, Castiel slid his hand down to wrap around all that he couldn’t take into his mouth before moving lower to stroke and fondle the full tightness of his balls.

“Oh my god. It’s like you’re in my head or something. Shit,” Dean groaned. “I’m gonna come so fucking hard.” He made a move to pull Cas’ head back in warning, but Castiel only sent a hooded look up at him and rubbed his tongue in slow circles over the slit while maintaining the relentless stimulation to Dean’s balls. He felt them draw up close to his body and Dean’s fingers yank painfully at his hair as he finally exploded across his tongue. The taste paired with the small, jerking movements of Dean’s body were enough to send Castiel over the edge as well, coming in his pants without even touching himself.

Dean whimpered when he slid out of Castiel’s mouth only for him to press a series of soft kisses to the head and slowly caress his thighs through the aftershocks.

Panting heavily, Dean pulled him to his feet and pressed their mouths together, licking the taste of himself from Castiel’s mouth. Castiel closed his eyes and allowed himself a moment to imagine that Dean was kissing him the way he used to – that the look in his eyes was fond and devoted rather than just lust-blown and well-fucked. Dean used to spend hours just kissing Castiel until both their mouths were shiny and swollen. For a moment, he could almost pretend things were like that again.

He hissed when Dean brought a hand to his over-sensitive cock to try and return the favor but was met only with the damp cloth of his jeans. “I’m good,” he whispered.

Dean could only stare at him, slightly baffled by the whole encounter, and Castiel could feel the strain of emotion at his throat and behind his eyes again. He reached up and pushed his hand beneath the cloth of Dean’s tee shirt to feel the raised flesh of his mark on his shoulder. He smiled sadly, the fact that Dean was at least carrying a part of him around with him offering the slightest measure of comfort.

He had died before, and this was beginning to feel startlingly similar.

He kissed Dean once more, pausing to feel the beat of his heart and the rhythm of his breath, before unlocking the door to the bathroom and gently maneuvering Dean out of the way.

Tilting his head to the side and managing one more smile, he locked eyes with the other man once more and said, “Take care of yourself, Dean.”

Once he was out the door and back into the dim, smoky light of the bar, Castiel made a beeline for the exit before Dean could snap out of his stupor and catch up to him. He pushed the door open and was met with the cool night air, which he then forced deep gasping breaths of into his vessel’s lungs. He moved far enough away from the parking lot that Dean wouldn’t be able to see him from the outside of the bar before he crumpled to his knees and finally let the wracking sobs he couldn’t release in heaven come tearing out of his mouth.

He pressed his fists against his eyes and when he pulled them away, he was back in heaven before Gabriel, who was looking at him with sympathy that he rarely expressed.

“I’m sorry, brother,” he whispered. “I don’t know why you insisted on doing that to yourself.”

A moment of silence passed between the brothers.

“I think we both know that nothing that Dean Winchester has ever elicited from me has ever made any sense at all.”

Re: Dean/Cas, amnesia [R] [Part 4]

[hopelessfangirl.livejournal.com]

Oh my God. I am shellshocked right now. This is absolutely fucking BRILLIANT. It's hot on a superficial level, but also absolutely heartwrenching on an emotional level. As you know, this is not my ship, but this is definitely the first Dean/Cas fic I've read that really made me feel the ship. Honestly. Holy God, this is perfect. YOU ARE AMAZING. ♥

Re: Dean/Cas, amnesia [R] [Part 4]

[invisiblelove.livejournal.com]

THANK YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU <33333333333

As you know, this is not my ship, but this is definitely the first Dean/Cas fic I've read that really made me feel the ship.
omg you're gonna make me cry <333

Thank you so so much. ILU. You always make me feel so good about my writing (and my photoshops and myself and my life in general). *LOVE FEST*

Re: Dean/Cas, amnesia [R] [Part 4]

[janie-tangerine.livejournal.com]

OMG OMG OMG SAD FIC IS SAD BUT I DON'T CARE BECAUSE IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL OH MY.

JESUS YOU MADE ME CRY ;_______; MOSTLY. I mean, that's a scenario that will ALWAYS make me ache but you did so well with it and AUGH CAS LET ME HUG YOU OR LET GABRIEL DO IT ;______________; (btw I loved Gabriel in this. ;) )

Also Jesus that porn was scorching. JUST, UH, SCORCHING. AND FIRST THING I READ IN THE MORNING SO UH, hi, I need a fan. And I just love how it wasn't only porn but as hopelessfangirl said it was so emotional too, omg. And of course Dean can't fully get it and just ;_________________; (btw, Castiel making Dean grab his hair tighter and caressing him through the aftershock = I DIEEED. POSITIVELY.)

AND OH GOD THE ENDING WAS SO PERFECT. ;___________; okay, I'll stop crying and thank you because this was WONDERFUL and who cares about the sad. Angst is good, when it's done as great as this. <3333333333333333333333333333333

Re: Dean/Cas, amnesia [R] [Part 4]

[invisiblelove.livejournal.com]

THANK YOU <3333 I'M SO GLAD YOU LIKED IT!!

AND I LOVE THAT YOU DIED POSITIVELY FROM THE HAIR PART. SERIOUSLY. I ALMOST CRIED WRITING THIS WTF.

Thank you thank you for your kind words. I'm SO glad you liked it <333 Had to make sure you got the very best after writing me that epic hot epicness :p

Re: Dean/Cas, amnesia [R] [Part 4]

[wandersfound.livejournal.com]

This was really sort of heartbreaking but this:
“Could you find somewhere private so I can get this in my mouth?”
LMAO. Oh Cas.
But omg other than that this was so emotional and so sweet and asdgfjksf so fucking sad. Beautiful job ♥

Re: Dean/Cas, amnesia [R] [Part 4]

[invisiblelove.livejournal.com]

Thank you <33

LOL poor Cas. He decided directness was his best bet.

Thanks again for your sweet feedback. And I swear, I don't know how I even came up with such angst. I think I've sort of bummed myself out for today, LOL.