Since you're gone my empty arms have nothing left to hold

1. Okay, I'm leaving for the European Lost fangirl gathering tomorrow! :D I'm so excited. And I need to grab some Edinburgh tour guide so that at least I have a map. Anyway, if anyone wants a card and hasn't commented from the other post I did, this is your last chance. ;) If I have your address already just tell me, if not PM me?

2. ( cut now because it's solved. )

3. Patti Smith concert was AWESOME. I want to be like her when I'm sixty. I might post some pictures and a video later if I manage to pack and be done with everything I need done at a reasonable time. Which reminds me I should go to the station to get my bus tickets for the airport in advance, but I'll do that as soon as I'm done with this.

4. The car, by the way, is at the mechanic's atm. Hope is that they fix it before Monday. Let's cross fingers.

5. Okay, I need some pretty in this post. So, have some Misha from SDCC. Pics were saved from various sources in the last three days. This man is too lovely for words. [PS: I'm unspoiled. I didn't look at the videos because for some random reason I decided I don't want to hear S6 spoilers unless it's vague stuff, so don't comment about whatever they could have said about it in comments, please? ;)] And also, have some Prettiness always from SDCC.

( cliiick. )

6. Okay, since I just made this post relevant in some way, I can go dealing with station stuff. I might have some other luau stuff to post this evening if I'm done with all I have to get done, and otherwise see you all on Monday! :DDD I'm so excited oh my.

Why, did you think I was skipping that this round?

You were so wrong. ;) Also because since last year there have been shoots and THE VAMPIRE PORN, I REPEAT THE VAMPIRE PORN. Also, ages ago I told emiliglia that I'd hook her up with Prettiness shirtless-ness, so there's that too.

Warning: this is heavy. It will break your dial-up, if you still have one. I take no responsibility for it. ;)

(Also, I sent him a message on Twitter. It feels weird to make him birthday wishes on Twitter. But still. That's what's it for.)

( aaaaand it's 31! )

Bye for this year. I did my job. Now I'll try to answer the comments I have NOT been notified yet...

1. Between yesterday and today, I think I can divide the last twenty-four hours in pro/cons:

Pros: I got recced. While on the bus yesterday because I was going to a friend's birthday dinner I had a moment of enlightenment re the three fic exchanges I signed up for. I decided which prompt I'm doing for the Lost Hohoho one (I was still undecided), I planned what was left of the crossover one and mostly I realized what I need to write for the Dean/Cas one. I didn't do the wordcount I needed for the bigbang #2 but I'm quite into it and I'm pretty sure I'll manage it in a couple of days. And next week I don't have one class at all, which is definitely a pro.

Cons: I didn't do the wordcount I needed (well, that's a con), my phone charger is still dead and I can't and won't spend another twenty-five euros on it since I had bought it two months ago, I went to bed at three AM (not that I complain, the birthday dinner was awesome) and now I kind of want to go to sleep but can't and worst thing, I didn't get the job. :// I'm kind of not quite pleased with it right now because they used a system where they gave you points based on the weighted average between grades and the relation between the credits you have at this point and the credits you should have by now given the year and the number of exams. And it ended up with at least seven people arriving before me who had a lower weighted average but a higher relation and at least six having a higher weighted average and a lower relation. Which means that if someone gave four exams in two years when he should have given ten but got the maximum on them all that person was above me anyway even if I'm at the third year and given way more exams even without having all maximums. And at least five people who got in were running late (I'm not, or not yet anyway) and I didn't get it for five places. Argh, I don't really want to whine about it but I could have really used some money. :// Whatever, if six people decide they don't want it after all then I guess I might still get in, but I really can't see it happening. *sigh* Ah, whatever. I'll see if I can find something else.

2. After I post this I'll go checking out some place doing yoga near here. Maybe I can start again since last year I had too much stuff on my hands and couldn't find the time to go where I did it before. And I'd probably benefit if I took it up again.

3. Memes! One from bold_seer, one from catoasapun.

a) 1. Reply to this post, and I will pick five of your icons.
2. Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
4. This will create a never-ending cycle of icon squee. Whoo!

Mine:



( under here )

b) - Reply to this meme by typing "I want in on this shit."
- I will then give you 3-5 words that remind me of you.
- Then post them in your LJ and explain what they mean to you.

Warning: this is long. And I rambled. And if you like my current PM, I strongly advise to skip the last word.

( I got Good Omens, Ian Somerhalder, George Orwell, Bruce Springsteen, Italy. )

4. And then today I came home and... new Misha promo pic from S5. Can that man be any more... *dies* I just think that it's kind of not exactly representative because I've never seen Cas wearing those clothes, not that I'd mind if he did wear them. Not that I care. Aw, Misha, thanks for sort of making my days nicer by being so lovely yourself.

5. Christmas cards post is here, if anyone else would like one? ;)

6. Okay, I think I'm pretty much done also because I rambled more than I had thought I would. O_o I'll be out checking out that yoga thing and then I'll get back to writing. And also editing the other bigbang. If I manage to read something at the gym then I can put all of that in the pros. *waves*

I seriously am exercising a lot of force of will here, but as I said watching this after SPN would totally make my enjoyment waver. I'll be downloading Flashforward and watching it tomorrow. And doing separate entries because SPN needs its own one this week I think.

( I'm doing this as I watch it more or less. )

28. Okay, waiting for lasamy for SPN now. Expect another post about that + another one this afternoon because I need to make a normal one. Sorry for the spam in advance.

1. Point 1 and 2 are what I'm now calling the proof that today is a good day.

( potential HEAVY Lost casting spoiler, you probably guessed what it is already but still, cutting it. )

2. Point is, point 1 came and made the day more awesome, but it had already started awesome. Okay, now I'll probably pass for the seriously insane fangirl, but anyway. So, yesterday Chad Lindberg of SPN fame (I reiterate: Ash used to be my favorite character before he, er, died *sigh*) reaches 2000 followers on Twitter. I congratulate him on the achievement, then go to bed. Then I wake up and he has answered me and wished me an awesome weekend.

The actor playing my former favorite SPN character actually wished me an awesome weekend. How freaking cool is this guy? *____* Damn. I miss Ash like crazy. And I kinda wish he'd go to the con we'll have here *crosses fingers*. Because if he does... no but anyway, he tweeted back at me!! *is still ecstatic*

3. Okay, again with the caring is sharing meme...

For one week, recommend/share:
Day 1: a song
→ Day 2: a picture
Day 3: a book/ebook/fanfic
Day 4: a site
Day 5: a youtube clip
Day 6: a quote
Day 7: whatever tickles your fancy

Today's picture won't probably mean anything if you're not into Jersey people/music (I'm sure wandersfound is laughing her a** off now at my ridiculous Jersey love), but I found it while I was searching for one and it's like, all the best Jersey music/cinema can offer in one shot. The quality is kinda crap but...



I mean. JBJ, Southside Johnny, Danny De Vito, Little Steven AND Bruce?

Yeah, I'm a girl obsessed with people from NJ. No news.

4. Today I went to see Videocracy. My only reaction: I really want to emigrate. And that's all I'm saying for now on the matter. For now.

5. Blah. I need to start writing again. Last week between medieval idiotic philosophers and stuff I didn't manage to get a full sentence down and a) it feels weird b) knowing myself the more I make it last the more I'll be lazy and considering that I have 50000 words of two fics to write before October 31st, three Lost things I want to have as late luau stuff even if I'm seriously late at this point, the SPN/GO crossover of doom which is still not done at +20000 words and at least another three fics I really want to write... I should stop being lazy. St. Thomas Aquinas doesn't put you in the mood to write slash though. (not to mention, Medieval stuff in general will probably kill any porn muse you might have. I think it's that.) *sigh* I just hope that all the theology crap I have to study will turn helpful with SPN stuff someday. Right now? Bo-ring.

5b. ( me asking an opinion about a probably supremely blaspheme SPN pairing I don't know if I want to write or not, cut for sparing non SPN people. )

6. Okay, I'll go answering stuff I should have answered two days ago and then I'll probably go reading some book which doesn't refer in any slightest way to God's intellect/free will, human intellect or anything concerning how Aristotle was really a Christian without knowing it. *roll eyes* *waves*

Well, don't be surprised that I watched the vampire pornography first. It's just that I woke up at the crack of dawn and I had an appointment with lasamy for SPN, except that since I didn't wanna spoil myself... also, if I watched it after SPN I'd have probably compared it and it'd have been pro-SPN in any case.

( I promised you an eternity of misery... I'm just keeping my word. )

Okay. Uh. Back to nursing my hormones and waiting for lasamy to get on Skype. Christ, I can't even check the FL but if I get spoiled for SPN ten minutes before I watch it I'll be very, very displeased. So, not checking the fl. *does not click*

PS: yes, the mood had to be THAT. See you in some hour and a half with the SPN review (I just don't want to smash them together).

1. *waves* Hi! Sorry for being disgustingly MIA this last week but I barely found a minute to sit down.

2. lasamy and pnr left respectively yesterday and today. ;_; it has been awesome! ♥

3. Okay, I think I'm caught up with almost all the comments I owed on this journal. I'll be finished with comments I owe in a short while, I hope. And maybe I'll manage to read some stuff for desperate luau catching up.

4. So, my mom's friends which lent us the house last year invited her for the weekend and I'm tagging along. Mostly because it's cool and it has a pool, after walking around all this city for nine days I'm dead tired and I can use three days off. Which means that I won't have an Internet connection in 99% of the possibilities, but maybe it'll actually be better because I'll just bring my laptop along with the luau requests I missed and instead of procrastinating I'll sit down and write.

5. Comma to point #4: I'm also counting on the three internet-less days to finish my Dean/Cas Secret Angels exchange fic (which right now stands at... uh, I dunno but definitely less than two pages) or at least to get most of it done. But since I wouldn't want to send it over without a beta reading first (also because if I get one characterization wrong then it won't stand on its feet), is there anyone who could give that a look towards, uhm, the mid of next week (I hope around Wednesday)? It'd be probably NC17 rated (or hard R, but my idea would be NC17) and.. er, I think it should end up being around 7500 words or so, but knowing yours truly there's a good chance it could get longer. And I need to have it sent before August 8th, even if I'd rather like to send it at least four-five days before. I don't think I'll end up having anything that should require warnings or disturbing stuff, but staying general, it'd be amnesia fic. Thanks in advance if anyone could do it. ;) ♥

6. ( cut for blathering about me watching Misha Collins in five different crime shows )

7. Best news of the week: IAN SOMERHALDER IS ON TWITTER. He's verified too. Apart from his profile description being priceless, if it turns out that he's the kind answering to twitters I'll probably die of flail. (Well, I was completely flailing while twittering him at all but still.) And I'm actually seriously excited for the vampire thing which is actually getting good recs. Which is scary.

8. Vampire thing speaking, this promo will be the death of me. Putting it on my desktop was NOT a smart idea. Doesn't mean I'm changing it anytime soon.

9. Thanks to pnr I've seen the Firefly pilot and I really liked it. Which means, I'll be downloading it. After all, it's fourteen episodes. Despite my serious fail at catching up with stuff, it can't be that hard.

10. Okay, I think I'm forgetting stuff but I have to go packing and then finish to read the tabs I had open, leave some comments I owe and finishing catching up with the ones I owe on this journal, so bye for now! *waves* And don't post too much while I'm gone. ;)

1. Exam #2 done *phew* now if only I didn't have another three to go one of which in a week... but whatever, I'll manage.

2. Meanwhile I'm taking tomorrow off. And finally catching up with fic, I hope.

3. That said, you know why Steve Earle is one of the most awesome beings on this planet? Because while I'm sure that his sales in this country are nil (or at least not far from that since regularly you can find just his first record and a greatest hits), he still tours here. Two dates for the new tour! And one is in Rome, still low price venue, and one that you can actually reach without taking a taxi! I'm so there, fuck yes. How awesome can he be? ♥

4. Shitload of memes because I need to distract myself, lol. This one tagged by velvetprose.

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST/BAND, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people whoever wants to. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think.

( that was hard )

5. Book meme from wandersfound.

1) What author do you own the most books by?
Uh, Stephen King. How many exactly... uh. *stands up and goes to count* 30.

( under here )

6. Okay. Lost possible spoilers so I won't say anything and just send you where I saw that video and whatever, but if this REALLY happens next year I'm SO FORGIVING THEM A LOT OF CRAP. ( under here because I need to be explicit. )

7. Misha Collins' awesomeness is without-any-fucking-limit. And I don't think I've ever fangirled so badly someone as crazy, but that's just too good of a thing really. I mean. Maybe I shouldn't want to know how he actually did it, but I trust the shining force of his awesomeness.

8. I think I'm really done for now. I'll be answering comments and then I'll probably crash somewhere. *waves*

1. European elections in two days. And I don't even know who the hell are the candidates except for one. Also, I'll probably go voting with my head again and I probably will want to vent come Monday. Blah. If I think about how excited I was about voting when I still couldn't vote I feel like crap. :/

2. But, yesterday I went and just took my way-too-old copy of Norton antivirus out of the computer (I have another one anyway) and... er. It hadn't been so fast in... one year or so. It's way faster, it doesn't crash as much as before and it didn't take ten minutes to load, this morning. Duh. Had I known it before I'd have taken it off six months ago.

3. ( third vampire diaries trailer under the cut! )

4. I finished Anansi Boys, which only confirmed my opinion that Neil Gaiman is too awesome for this world. Except that I think that I've read everything he has written except Stardust which I probably will skip because it's just not my thing. But still. This one was awesome.

5. I stand of my opinion. Everyone says that Heidegger is the greatest philosopher of this century because no-one ever understood a thing of what he meant except maybe Heidegger himself.

6. I finally managed to listen to Steve Earle's latest record and OMG!! ♥ Fine, it's all covers and I need to find the originals but OMG! It's SO good!! *draws hearts*

7. So, I should probably go buying groceries. Then go studying whatever Kant has to do with history of medicine. And then post fic from one of those two kink memes sometime this afternoon. And meanwhile trying to finish one fic that I intend to enter for the fix-it challenge at lostsquee. Or at least the first draft. Which means I'll be off after this incredibly interesting entry.

8. But, I'll leave you with this awesome thing that popped up some Bruce community last day.

Robert De Niro stole his famous "You talkin' to me?" Taxi Driver movie line from rock legend Bruce Springsteen. The line, which De Niro's character recites to himself in the 1976 Martin Scorsese movie, has become one of the most famous movie quotes of all time.

And the acting legend has confessed it was inspired by a trip to a Springsteen concert, while he was preparing for the role.
De Niro made the admission to Springsteen's bandmate Clarence Clemons - who coached the actor to play the saxophone for movie New York, New York. Clemons tells the New York Daily News, "(He) had been to one of our concerts and the audience was yelling out 'Bruce!' In those days, Bruce would stop onstage and say, 'You talkin' to me?' "De Niro was kind of channeling him."

I mean, it's not like Bruce didn't have an already divinity-like status with me, but this? I mean. ♥

1. Uhm, okay, so, His Prettiness' agent owes me. Big time. Because this crap was even worse than the scepter of Moses. And I mean it. I've rarely seen such a pointless, stupid, plot-ridiculous and completely idiotic movie all my life. It was worth just because of His Prettiness chain-smoking and looking gorgeous and never changing from his suit, but it was crap. How can people rate it 5.6 on IMDB is a mystery. I gave it two just because it's His Prettiness. I don't know shit about this sci-fi channel where this aired and where the scepter of Moses aired too, but it has to be the worst channel in existence, also because fuck, they air movies which are so PG that I want to throw up. Blah. I couldn't wait for it to be over and that's saying it all.

2. On the contrary, Near Dark is fucking awesome. Right, I'm pretty sure I was gifted with it just because Adrian Pasdar is in it, but what a movie. I freaking loved it. Definitely not for all stomachs, but the concept was brilliant, the acting too, Lance Henriksen was pretty much the real thing, young!vampire!Adrian Pasdar was seriously making me a happy camper and I definitely need to see more Kathryn Bigelow movies. I've only seen this one and Strange Days and I need to rectify. Mm, I needed it after point #1's crap.

3. Crap, I have a lot of fic to re-post. I hate to spam but.. ah well. Expect at least two posts this afternoon/evening.

4. Couple of memes because otherwise this entry wouldn't have a point except me bitching about crap movies I watch just because I miss Ian Somerhalder's face. This from isis2015 if you feel so inclined. ;)

Comment with your three favorite fannish things (fanfic, fanmixes, vids, picspams, etc.) that I have done, and tell me why you like them. Then post this in your journal and I will do the same for you.

5. And these because wandersfound said everyone should have done at least the first. ;)

Sometimes it’s okay to pimp yourself out. Post a list of your top five favorite fics you’ve written, regardless of fandom or the reason you love them. This isn’t about the BEST things you’ve written, but what you LOVE most. Then tag five other people to do the same. -> whoever wants, do it. ;)

( under the cut because who knows if I get too long and this is getting long already. )

( the second one which is mostly questions. I'll try to be brief. )

6. That was it. I'll be trying to sort out books and making my shelves a tidy place and then I'll re-post fic from one of those two kink memes and from the lostsquee ficlet challenge probably.