Since you're gone my empty arms have nothing left to hold

Er. Right. This thing took, like, three months or so and I managed to finish it just because the fix-it challenge made me re-write a good part of it and gave me an idea to actually make it work and well, here it goes.

Title: I Lost It (or four people who lost Boone Carlyle's heart and one who didn't)
Rating: R or something along those lines. There's sex, duh.
Pairings/Characters: Jack/Boone, Boone/Shannon, Boone/Charlie and Sawyer/Boone; Boone, Shannon, Charlie, Sawyer, Locke, Jack.
Words: 6474
Summary: It starts when Boone gets sick of lying and pretending he felt relieved when he never really did; two weeks after his hallucination, he goes to Jack and spills everything, from how they found the hatch to how he and Locke spend their days instead of hunting.
Spoilers: set in S1, none really if you know what the hatch is.
Disclaimer: Ha, not mine. This would have happened.
A/N: So, this is for the lostsquee fix-it challenge because it actually attempts to fix everything I can fix about Boone's story starting with him hooking up with someone who actually would give a damn and telling about the hatch because it'd have been way less problematic if he had. But, this is also for emiliglia who had prompted me with romantic Jack/Boone on island for her birthday *headdesk*. Sorry for making you wait three months. Title stolen from an infamous Lucinda Williams song. And using for un_love_you #30, I trust you (writer's choice), which translates in me finishing that table. Also, the prompt said romantic and well, uhm, I tried. Kinda.

( Then one day Jack finds him somewhere and says he needs help cataloging the meds. Could he give a hand? Boone says yes and that’s when it starts. )

Title: And Your Memory Cannot Keep Me Warm But It Never Leaves Me Cold
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Jack/Boone
Words: 6165
Summary: Daniel's plan worked and Jack remembers everything. Boone doesn't.
Spoilers: heavy for the S5 finale, and I mean it.
Disclaimer: Ha, not mine. This would happen next season.
A/N: birthday fic for elise_509 who left me one of the most delicious prompts I could ask for. Clearly it got completely out of hand but it was in the package. ;) Using for un_love_you #25, you remind me of someone; title from a certain Steve Earle song which I like far too much.

( “It’s just... it’s like you reminded me of someone I don’t know. I mean, I’m sure I never met you anywhere before and I don’t think I know anyone else who looks like you, but you just look... I don’t know, familiar?” )

Okay, so, three for now. The rest in the next days. And I still have about half of the letters free so if someone wants to claim a letter here it is.

Title: Empty-Handed Heart
Rating: PG
Characters: Boone
Words: 316
Summary: As he leaves Shannon behind, he realizes that he has been deliberately mean to her and that he had hoped she suffered at least one tenth as much as he had. This isn’t like him.
Spoilers: Mid S1.
Disclaimer: God, no, not mine. I'd be richer.
A/N: for inthekeyofd who wanted Boone and vacant. Using for un_love_you #13, I want to hurt you. Title stolen from Warren Zevon.

( Feeling relieved brings a strange sensation. )

Title: Unstuck
Rating: PG
Characters: Daniel, Desmond (maaaybe Dan/Des if you want to see it)
Words: 788
Summary: Desmond is like some incredibly bright star against a dull, dark sky, an isolated system that doesn’t interact with its surroundings and transcends the blasted Minkowski spacetime where time only has a single dimension.
Spoilers: general S5. What's here is pure speculation, I'm not spoiled for what's happening re this particular thing.
Disclaimer: God, no, not mine. I'd be richer.
A/N: for elliotsmelliot who wanted Desmond, Daniel and touch. Using for chem15try #15, isolated system. The rant in the beginning probably owes something to my lessons of history of logic and I wouldn't have managed the thing without a lot of Wikipedia. Also, don't ask me where it came from, Daniel with me is very fickle.

( Saying that Desmond is special is saying everything and nothing at the same time. )

Title: Beatles, Thackeray and the fragile concept of utopia
Rating: PG really
Pairing: Desmond/Charlie
Words: 529
Summary: In this very moment, Charlie’s world is nothing short of a fragment of a very comfortable utopia (fragment because he’s not that naïve and he knows that utopia is, sadly, a concept that rarely lasts); the bed is wide, the sheets were changed this morning and are clean and crispy (not to mention, it’s also his favorite set, the yellow one), the spring night isn’t chilly nor too hot, the radio on his night stand (the volume is low, of course) is passing Hey Jude and his arms are firmly wrapped around Desmond’s waist.
Spoilers: Er, mid S3? AU, established relationship and really, don't ask me explanations.
Disclaimer: God, no, not mine. I'd be richer.
A/N: for toestastegood who wanted Des/Charlie and spooning. I guess that it'll probably get fluff-y. This is kinda set in the Networking universe, but it's really a standalone.

( “Well, you can’t really beat the one and only rock god in this room, and I’m including the Beatles too.” )

Well, I am brain-dead and I need to start with the dump. Sorry in advance, but this will be the only one for today.

Title: Not What It Seems
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Sawyer/Boone
Words: 677
Summary: Contrary to appearances, Boone Carlyle does not fuck like a girl. Hell, no.
Spoilers: none if you have seen S1.
Disclaimer: Lost is not mine and I'm sure you didn't expect it.
A/N: written ages ago for the lostsquee fic battle, for the prompt like fucking a girl; using for un_love_you #26, I can be like you.

( Boone never says anything and Sawyer, who never was one for words, doesn't talk. )

Title: Such A Tease
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Boone/Charlie
Words: 1005
Summary: While he can get someone being annoyed, Charlie is being a pain instead of cooperating here and no, the fact that it's Charlie's back being pushed on the blanket full of holes doesn't mean that he's going to justify him much longer just because of that.
Spoilers: none if you have seen S1.
Disclaimer: Lost is not mine and I'm sure you didn't expect it.
A/N: written ages ago for the lostsquee fic battle, for the prompt S1 sex with snark; using for un_love_you #24, I want you to hate me.

( “That was sodding good. Hate to admit it, and you talk way too much and tease way too much, but sure as bloody hell you know what you're doing. )

Title: Annunciation
Rating: PG
Characters: Ben, dead!Boone
Words: 728
Summary: Ben figures this guy is just your usual arts student whom you always meet in the Tate gallery and turns his attention back on the painting, feeling his cell phone in his pocket. The call should arrive any second.
Spoilers: mostly for S4 including the finale. I wrote it before S5 aired so take it as an AU even if it's technically set in S5.
Disclaimer: Lost is not mine and I'm sure you didn't expect it.
A/N: written for my interview at the thequillstation, using for un_love_you #18, I pity you.

( “Beautiful painting, isn’t it?” )

So, this isn't exactly what I had hoped to finish but hey, I did finish one. Maybe now I'll also finish the others.

Title: On Two Different Sides
Rating: PG13
Characters: dead!Boone, the Oceanic 6 (there's some kinda Jack/Boone thrown in the end)
Words: 700
Summary: He wishes Sun hadn’t been there; he wishes he could do something; he wishes Aaron wasn't born when he was born; he wishes he understood her; he wishes he could resent Sayid; he wishes he had died when the beechcraft fell.
Spoilers: nothing beyond the S4 flashforwards.
Disclaimer: Lost is not mine. Boone wouldn't be dead *rolls eyes*.
A/N: for un_love_you #17, wish I didn't love you. The first five sections are drabbles, the last is 200 words because I just couldn't be brief. I don't have an idea of where it came from but hey, it was cooperating, I went with it. Nothing of the happy sort.

( It doesn’t exactly hurt, not anymore, but still, he wishes he could do something. And he can’t, just like he never could when he was alive. )

Title: Blame It on a Simple Twist of Fate
Rating: Hard R bordering on light NC17 I guess
Pairing/Characters: Boone/Juliet (yes, you read right), some Sawyer
Word counting: around 9000
Disclaimer: Lost is so definitely not mine. Look at the pairing. I mean, look at the pairing.
Spoilers: heavy for S5 including 5x06, even if it's completely AU from the beginning, in the sense that here Boone survived the accident.
Summary: She had needed someone to make her feel special and not second-best, without any other purpose behind it; he had been that someone realizing it before she did herself. He needs someone to put him there once and he probably doesn’t think he’s worth the effort; well, fine. She can do it.
A/N: my dearest lenina20, this be the infamous birthday fic. Yes, I did go and write it. Yes, it's all your fault therefore all yours, I wash my hands of the responsibility for the pairing *cough* ♥. Title shamelessly stolen from a Bob Dylan song which doesn't have a thing to do with this whole thing. Endless thanks to halfdutch for the great betaing, it did indeed save my life here. ;) Also using for un_love_you #29, writer's choice, thank you.

( “Well, you and the metro make quite the pair.” )

So this is basically what I write when I need to write reaction fic and don't even try to be remotely objective about it. Blame it also on frustration with the local news and physics research.

Title: Anger at Lies Lasts Forever
Rating: pg13
Pairing: undead!Boone, sort of Locke
Word counting: 1070 or so
Disclaimer: if Lost was mine, a certain thing last episode wouldn't have happened. Which means, Lost is not mine.
Spoilers: it presumes having seen 5x04.
Summary: The point is that words can indeed kill; and putting together a sentence that can kill you even if you’re already dead is pretty remarkable.
A/N: for un_love_you #17, I hate you, you jerk (well, it was bitch but I conveniently switched). This is just me dealing with that certain sentence. If Locke is your favorite character or you didn't mind a certain thing he said last episode then this isn't what you want to read. I mean it. Also, second person POV.

( You never hated anyone your whole life. )

Okay. This is the monster at last. I swear I did my best with it. I just hope I haven't messed stuff up here.

Title: None But The Brave
For: halfdutch for the lostsquee Lost Hohoho challenge.
Pairing: Jack/Boone, minor Sawyer/Cassidy and Desmond/Sayid, more or less everyone shows up
Rating: NC17
Prompt: Some kind of AU-ish thing where Jack's a cop. Possibly with Boone as a rookie cop under his wing? Hurt/comfort always a plus!
Disclaimer: Lost is surely not mine, any cop show I might have watched from which I took inspiration without probably meaning it is not mine, everything isn’t mine, we established it.
Word Count: wordcounter here says more than 19000.
Summary: Jack is a lieutenant in the LAPD, Boone a recently recruited officer with a pretty serious crush on his boss.
A/N: Well, the only excuse I have here for the length is that the plot happened. It just… grew and grew and then it became the monster it is. Every implausible thing that might be here is all my fault but I swear I did my research as thoroughly as possible. Also, halfdutch, I went with your first request but as per the other two, Gault has a role of some importance here and there’s some Sawyer/Cassidy. Title stolen from Springsteen as usual. As of warnings, well, there’s drug and prostitution talking and well, the usual that comes in police settings I guess. Using for un_love_you #3, this cancels out the hurt.

( See, the point is that he should have expected it to start with a poor figure. )

Forgive me the heavy load of stuff here but I swear it's all short stuff. And I guess it'll be the last post before I go so Merry Christmas meanwhile. ;)

Non Lost:

Title: Unchanging (Heroes/Supernatural crossover)
Pairing: John Winchester/Adam Monroe
Rating: PG13
Disclaimer: Pff. Seriously. If Heroes was mine it'd be a way better show. And if SPN was mine JDM would appear as the monthly angel or something.
Word count: 517
Spoilers: the pilot for SPN and... well, if you know who Adam is, you're good.
Summary: His name was Adam and even if he had always considered their... well, their business either one of those crushes that comes one day and is gone the other or a way to avoid going definitely mad in that hell on earth, John had always remembered him clearly.
A/N: for toestastegood who 'forced' me on the meme down here.

( It’s not like he’s having a drink with a total stranger because the man is not a total stranger. )

Title: Brokeback
Pairing: faaaaaint Tim/Jason
Rating: PG?
Disclaimer: Friday Night Lights is not mine. Especially because if it was they wouldn't have done what they did and I'd be watching it regularly, not trying to gather the courage to catch up.
Word count: 386
Spoilers: the Brokeback episode. ;)
Summary: He isn’t sure the position means anything but that handful of words does, it does so much, especially after all that happened what seems ages ago and what happened just now.
A/N: for lasamy who 'forced' me on the meme down here. ♥ First time I write FNL ever. God. Go me.

( Well, yeah, might be so Brokeback but he wouldn’t ever renounce this. )

Lost:

Title: Disadvantages Occurring When You Start Naming Too Many Stars
Characters: Karl, who's having sort of a bit of a crush on Sawyer.
Rating: PG13
Disclaimer: Lost is nooot mine. Canon wouldn't have happened.
Word count: 517
Spoilers: If Lost was mine, what Did Not Happen wouldn't have happened.
Summary: Karl is also sure he looks like an idiot whenever he’s around him. The worst thing is that Alex kind of joked about it once and said he didn’t have bad taste.
A/N: For bachlava who did asked for one of the sane family in another meme. by the way, what Did Not Happen Does Not Happen after this. ;) the title is mine for once. Shows because it's horrible.

( Okay, so, Karl doesn’t have an idea of what is happening. Not-at-all. )

Title: The Man In Black Fled Across The Desert
Characters: Sawyer
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Lost is not mine, The Dark Tower isn't either.
Word count: 319
Spoilers: ppf, nothing? Well, the first two lines of the first Dark Tower book aren't a spoiler. I hope.
Summary: Sawyer doesn’t like Stephen King. Correction: Sawyer hates Stephen King.
A/N: for thespiansparkle who asked for a drabble too and gets this because I thought it was a good idea.

( He thinks that maybe he should check the plot on the back cover. But then again, why? That’d be no surprise, right? )

Title: Whirl Away
Pairing: Desmond/Sayid
Rating: light NC17
Disclaimer: This is me being hopeful. Of course Lost isn't mine.
Word count: 647
Spoilers: S4 finale.
Summary: He isn't doing this just because he's so desperate that he'll take any kind of comfort that brings his mind away from the real world, but also because they have been sharing the cabin for a week and Sayid has barely given a sign of acknowledging he's here at all.
A/N: originally for erika325 for that trick and treat fic post. Using for lostpicksix #2, kissing. Title stolen from Patti Smith.

( It happens in a second or something like it. )

Title: Here I Go And I Don't Know Why
Pairing: Boone/Claire
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Ha, Lost is not mine. What news.
Word count: 749
Spoilers: White Rabbit? Is that a spoiler?
Summary: It starts the day when he apologizes to her for the water. He’s really sorry and absolutely ashamed and the way Arzt looks at him when he says he’s sorry surely doesn’t make things easier.
A/N: for lenina20 who 'forced' me on the meme down here. ♥ Using for un_love_you #11, Thought I needed this. Uhm, did I really finally tried the pairing? Title stolen from Patti Smith.

( If there’s one thing Boone Carlyle is incapable of doing, is saying no (especially when you’re a girl, you’re a blonde and with a completely different attitude from his sister’s, but Claire doesn’t know this and it doesn’t matter anyway, since the other thing about Boone Carlyle is that he always does what he does sincerely). )

Title: Revenge Is A Kind of Wild Justice
Pairing: Boone/Shannon
Rating: light R
Disclaimer: It should be clear that Lost isn't mine.
Word count: 580
Spoilers: In Traslation maybe?
Summary: She wants him to hate her because it’s not fair that she needs to hate him and and he just doesn’t get it. She needs someone to have her revenge on and since she won’t ever get any on Sabrina, it’s got to be him. Even if he doesn’t really have much of a fault.
A/N: uhm, this one is for me I guess, because I like myself Boone angst. ;) ;) seriously, I wrote it in class, has been sitting for a while and since I was having the ficlet dump.. using for un_love_you #16, I want to break you. Title stolen from some Francis Bacon quote. I'm not worthy.

( Then they crash and she realizes that nothing has changed really, because he still loves her anyway like the hopeless moron he is, except that now he’s beyond any repair. )

Oh wow. That was hard. Okay, I'm done. ;)

Title: And He Left My Heart With Vertigo
Characters/Pairing: Boone/Charlie
Rating: NC17
Disclaimer: come on, you really think such stuff wouldn't be canon if Lost was mine?
Word count: 4200
Spoilers: pre-series, so none apart from the basic biography of the characters.
Summary: This groupie is a he and usually he-groupies choose Liam. Not him. When there are any he-groupies at all. In his head, Charlie has been calling this bloke His Prettiness since he set eyes on him backstage.
A/N: for un_love_you #4, I need to want you. Thanks to the mostly awesome dustyirish2003 for the quick and great beta-ing job with this one. Title stolen from a Bon Jovi song even if the whole thing came pretty much as flash while I was listening to Guns n' Roses. Won for Best Slash Fic at lost_fic_awards, October 2008.



( “See? Your brother... your brother doesn’t even play the guitar. Doesn’t really do the trick, right?” )