fic, Supernatural: Doubt Not For Me (sorta Dean/Castiel), for <lj site="livejournal.com" user="deanc

[janie_tangerine]

Because while I write stuff which I have a deadline for I end up trying to write drabbles. :/ And I shouldn't be up at one AM, but I apparently am and that's what comes out.

Title: Doubt Not For Me
Rating: PG
Pairing: past!Dean/future!Castiel
Words: 100
Summary: He doesn’t flinch when Cas’ grip tightens.
Spoilers: for 5x04.
Disclaimer: pfff, not mine.
A/N: title from the same Flogging Molly song I steal for past!Dean/future!Castiel fics. And, I haven't written a drabble in ages and I'm obsessed with 5x04. That'd be it.

They stop the car; Cas lays his hand, palm upward, on the gear shift.

(A pill falls down.)

“Could... could you? For a minute?” he asks; Dean doesn’t get it. Cas turns and he looks like a man who knows he’s going to die very soon; and Dean gets it.

“Yeah,” he whispers, his voice choked. He interlaces his fingers with Cas’, carefully, his palm meeting warm, rough skin; wrong, he thinks.

(He doesn’t flinch when Cas’ grip tightens; rather, he reciprocates it, his thumb brushing Cas’ knuckle.)

I swear I’ll fix this is all he hopes his gestures say.

End

Comments

[adictd2life.livejournal.com]

oh god so painful. And so beautiful.

[janie-tangerine.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, glad you liked it!

[fullonswayzeed.livejournal.com]

This is really heartwrenching. I love it. ♥

[janie-tangerine.livejournal.com]

Aw, thank you so much! ♥ I'm so glad that you did.

[cordeliadelayne]

Oh, *sniffle*, so lovely.

[janie-tangerine.livejournal.com]

*hands tissue* thank you!

[rogue-pixie88.livejournal.com]

*sniffles a bit* So hurty yet beautiful. <3

[janie-tangerine.livejournal.com]

Aw, thank you so much! Those two make me cry. ;_; *hands tissue* <3

[thandie.livejournal.com]

Oh god, this is heartbreaking.

[janie-tangerine.livejournal.com]

:( it's that episode, you can't avoid it. Thank you! <3

[gottalovev.livejournal.com]

oh! wow, that does hurt. man, the angst in this verse. will tackle it soon, but I'm such a sap, might try to make it better a bit like your Dean *shakes head at us fools*

[janie-tangerine.livejournal.com]

Aw, thank you so much! And good luck with that, the angst in that verse is something fierce. I'd do like p!Dean too really. Or I'd try it anyway. ;)

[bold-seer.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure if I want to be comment number 13 today, but as I, too, am obsessed with 5x04...

his palm meeting warm, rough skin; wrong, he thinks.

Love it, even though it makes me go all :(

[janie-tangerine.livejournal.com]

Ooops. Well if I hadn't answered all the others already you'd be number seven, let's just count that? ;)

And aww, thank you! Those two in that timeline are just :((((

[invisiblelove.livejournal.com]

GAAAAH my heart D: future!Cas just destroys me *huggles him*

This was beautifully sad <33

[janie-tangerine.livejournal.com]

f!Cas DESTROYS me too. How can people say that him smoking weed was fun, it was just... :((( anyway, thank you so much!! <33333

[thevinegarworks.livejournal.com]

Oh god how did I not know about this until now.

Pain. Paaaaaaain, but so, so good.

[janie-tangerine.livejournal.com]

Well, now you do. ;) Seriously, thank you so much. And yeah. F!Cas = PAAAIN. Indeed. :(