Since you're gone my empty arms have nothing left to hold

Apologizes in advance for the spamming. I have two ficlets for that meme and probably something else later when I'm done with Medieval Philosophy class.

Title: Your Ex-Lover Is Dead
Rating: R
Pairing: Desmond/Sayid (implied Desmond/Penny)
Words: 1694
Summary: Sayid still looks at him, his stare meaning nothing and everything; Desmond doesn’t know what he should do, maybe say strange to see you again, maybe let him go, but he doesn’t want to.
Spoilers: goes AU from 5x06, 316.
Disclaimer: haaa, no, not mine. Yeah, really.
A/N: for tellshannon815 who wanted wish for the alphabet meme and lostpicksix 13, chance encounter. I do realize that if this happened then everything that happened in S5 would be fucked up, but that's exactly why, frankly, I don't give a damn. Title stolen from Stars and yes, everything but a ficlet. *cough*

( What Desmond still feels as he makes his way back to the docks, is rage. )

Title: Nothing Left To Lose
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Desmond/Sayid
Word counting: 515
Disclaimer: not mine, it'd happen.
Summary: He lets Sayid do anything he wants because it's not like it even matters anymore.
A/N: written for the prompt up against the wall; using for lostpicksix #20, noncon even if this is actually more do-whatever-you-want-with-me-con. But it's as close as I'll come to it so I might use it as well. Warning: it's angsty and also kind of not exactly nice.

( He doesn't know when Sayid's eyes stopped being a dead man's eyes and became something else as they stood there. )

Title: It's Regret For The Things We Didn't Do That's Inconsolable
Rating: Pg13
Pairing: Desmond/Sayid
Word counting: 470
Disclaimer: not mine, it'd happen.
Summary: Regrets eat you alive.
A/N: written for the prompt regret; using for lostpicksix #29, lies.

( Sayid doesn’t know why he tells Desmond that maybe it’d be nice to have a talk in his cabin. Just because. )

Title: What Is and What Shouldn't Be
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Desmond/Sayid
Word counting: 1087
Disclaimer: not mine, it'd happen.
Summary: Sayid is aware of Desmond slowly undressing him, taking off every item slowly and carefully; he’s aware of cold fingers trailing across his chest, over his hips, across his legs, feathery touches that are amplified by his lack of vision and which are making him tremble and shiver all over, unable to help it.
A/N: written for the prompt blindfold; using for lostpicksix #35, fetish.

( If Sayid opens his eyes, the world is made of soft, luxurious dark violet satin. If he closes them, it’s just dark. )

God, why, why can't I write comment length stuff? But this kinda wanted to be written and since I have this feeling that tomorrow's episode will absolutely ditch the premise I wanted to have it posted before.

Title: We Three
Rating: hard R
Characters/Pairing: Desmond/Penny/Sayid in any possible combination
Word counting: 2246
Disclaimer: if Lost was mine... why. What the hell. This'd be canon.
Spoilers: for the S5 premiere.
Summary: Yes, Penny thinks, it’s insane.
A/N: written for the battle at lostsquee for the prompt stars. Using for lostpicksix #34, femslash, because erm, how am I supposed to write femslash with a m/m pairing otherwise? Title stolen from Patti Smith. Also, wandersfound? I don't remember if it was you with whom I was discussing an eventual Des/Pen/Sayid threesome ages ago but since I think you might not be adverse this is your surprise for that meme? ;)

( Sayid turned in order to get out, but then Desmond had said 'don’t' and Penny hadn’t exactly been surprised. )

Okay. This is the monster at last. I swear I did my best with it. I just hope I haven't messed stuff up here.

Title: None But The Brave
For: halfdutch for the lostsquee Lost Hohoho challenge.
Pairing: Jack/Boone, minor Sawyer/Cassidy and Desmond/Sayid, more or less everyone shows up
Rating: NC17
Prompt: Some kind of AU-ish thing where Jack's a cop. Possibly with Boone as a rookie cop under his wing? Hurt/comfort always a plus!
Disclaimer: Lost is surely not mine, any cop show I might have watched from which I took inspiration without probably meaning it is not mine, everything isn’t mine, we established it.
Word Count: wordcounter here says more than 19000.
Summary: Jack is a lieutenant in the LAPD, Boone a recently recruited officer with a pretty serious crush on his boss.
A/N: Well, the only excuse I have here for the length is that the plot happened. It just… grew and grew and then it became the monster it is. Every implausible thing that might be here is all my fault but I swear I did my research as thoroughly as possible. Also, halfdutch, I went with your first request but as per the other two, Gault has a role of some importance here and there’s some Sawyer/Cassidy. Title stolen from Springsteen as usual. As of warnings, well, there’s drug and prostitution talking and well, the usual that comes in police settings I guess. Using for un_love_you #3, this cancels out the hurt.

( See, the point is that he should have expected it to start with a poor figure. )

Forgive me the heavy load of stuff here but I swear it's all short stuff. And I guess it'll be the last post before I go so Merry Christmas meanwhile. ;)

Non Lost:

Title: Unchanging (Heroes/Supernatural crossover)
Pairing: John Winchester/Adam Monroe
Rating: PG13
Disclaimer: Pff. Seriously. If Heroes was mine it'd be a way better show. And if SPN was mine JDM would appear as the monthly angel or something.
Word count: 517
Spoilers: the pilot for SPN and... well, if you know who Adam is, you're good.
Summary: His name was Adam and even if he had always considered their... well, their business either one of those crushes that comes one day and is gone the other or a way to avoid going definitely mad in that hell on earth, John had always remembered him clearly.
A/N: for toestastegood who 'forced' me on the meme down here.

( It’s not like he’s having a drink with a total stranger because the man is not a total stranger. )

Title: Brokeback
Pairing: faaaaaint Tim/Jason
Rating: PG?
Disclaimer: Friday Night Lights is not mine. Especially because if it was they wouldn't have done what they did and I'd be watching it regularly, not trying to gather the courage to catch up.
Word count: 386
Spoilers: the Brokeback episode. ;)
Summary: He isn’t sure the position means anything but that handful of words does, it does so much, especially after all that happened what seems ages ago and what happened just now.
A/N: for lasamy who 'forced' me on the meme down here. ♥ First time I write FNL ever. God. Go me.

( Well, yeah, might be so Brokeback but he wouldn’t ever renounce this. )

Lost:

Title: Disadvantages Occurring When You Start Naming Too Many Stars
Characters: Karl, who's having sort of a bit of a crush on Sawyer.
Rating: PG13
Disclaimer: Lost is nooot mine. Canon wouldn't have happened.
Word count: 517
Spoilers: If Lost was mine, what Did Not Happen wouldn't have happened.
Summary: Karl is also sure he looks like an idiot whenever he’s around him. The worst thing is that Alex kind of joked about it once and said he didn’t have bad taste.
A/N: For bachlava who did asked for one of the sane family in another meme. by the way, what Did Not Happen Does Not Happen after this. ;) the title is mine for once. Shows because it's horrible.

( Okay, so, Karl doesn’t have an idea of what is happening. Not-at-all. )

Title: The Man In Black Fled Across The Desert
Characters: Sawyer
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Lost is not mine, The Dark Tower isn't either.
Word count: 319
Spoilers: ppf, nothing? Well, the first two lines of the first Dark Tower book aren't a spoiler. I hope.
Summary: Sawyer doesn’t like Stephen King. Correction: Sawyer hates Stephen King.
A/N: for thespiansparkle who asked for a drabble too and gets this because I thought it was a good idea.

( He thinks that maybe he should check the plot on the back cover. But then again, why? That’d be no surprise, right? )

Title: Whirl Away
Pairing: Desmond/Sayid
Rating: light NC17
Disclaimer: This is me being hopeful. Of course Lost isn't mine.
Word count: 647
Spoilers: S4 finale.
Summary: He isn't doing this just because he's so desperate that he'll take any kind of comfort that brings his mind away from the real world, but also because they have been sharing the cabin for a week and Sayid has barely given a sign of acknowledging he's here at all.
A/N: originally for erika325 for that trick and treat fic post. Using for lostpicksix #2, kissing. Title stolen from Patti Smith.

( It happens in a second or something like it. )

Title: Here I Go And I Don't Know Why
Pairing: Boone/Claire
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Ha, Lost is not mine. What news.
Word count: 749
Spoilers: White Rabbit? Is that a spoiler?
Summary: It starts the day when he apologizes to her for the water. He’s really sorry and absolutely ashamed and the way Arzt looks at him when he says he’s sorry surely doesn’t make things easier.
A/N: for lenina20 who 'forced' me on the meme down here. ♥ Using for un_love_you #11, Thought I needed this. Uhm, did I really finally tried the pairing? Title stolen from Patti Smith.

( If there’s one thing Boone Carlyle is incapable of doing, is saying no (especially when you’re a girl, you’re a blonde and with a completely different attitude from his sister’s, but Claire doesn’t know this and it doesn’t matter anyway, since the other thing about Boone Carlyle is that he always does what he does sincerely). )

Title: Revenge Is A Kind of Wild Justice
Pairing: Boone/Shannon
Rating: light R
Disclaimer: It should be clear that Lost isn't mine.
Word count: 580
Spoilers: In Traslation maybe?
Summary: She wants him to hate her because it’s not fair that she needs to hate him and and he just doesn’t get it. She needs someone to have her revenge on and since she won’t ever get any on Sabrina, it’s got to be him. Even if he doesn’t really have much of a fault.
A/N: uhm, this one is for me I guess, because I like myself Boone angst. ;) ;) seriously, I wrote it in class, has been sitting for a while and since I was having the ficlet dump.. using for un_love_you #16, I want to break you. Title stolen from some Francis Bacon quote. I'm not worthy.

( Then they crash and she realizes that nothing has changed really, because he still loves her anyway like the hopeless moron he is, except that now he’s beyond any repair. )

Oh wow. That was hard. Okay, I'm done. ;)